Plan B?

It's crunch time. The weeks are by passing by in the blink of an eye. Graduation is almost here and I still have yet to hear anything about my application. If I'm being completely honest, I've had to use every muscle in my body to stay cool, calm and collect. If there was good news headed my way...I would have heard by now (or at least thats what I have told myself in my head). But for definitely, final decisions will be made April 15th. So until that date, anything is possible.

As for a plan B, my mind has been so consumed with other things I haven't had a whole lot of time to think about it. I will continue my application process to other nursing schools in California and Arizona. When will I start those? I have no idea. I guess my next step is figuring out which schools I want to apply to. So many big decisions to make coming up, but right now I'm just trying to enjoy my last few weeks of college!

Lent

Last week the wind orchestra played for the Wednesday chapel service for Lent. I usually don't go to chapel because I overuse the excuse, "I never have time." But this time, I'm very glad I was there. Every year for Lent, I eliminate something from my daily routine (usually a food item). Whether it be gum, chocolate, cookies or cheese (which was the hardest one to give up) I feel almost there is a respect factor to be shown. This year I have chosen to eliminate eating after 8 pm. In the past couple months, I have found myself to be an habitual midnight snacker, so it was a perfect thing to give up.
The sermon for the Lent chapel service really reminded me why take my time to give something up. Even though I struggle with not being able to snack after 8, it really does remind me of the great sacrifice of Jesus Christ. If I struggle with my task, I can only imagine what a painful process He went through. I know God doesn't ask or require us to "give up" anything, because His suffering and forgiveness is free that comes from unconditional love, but I really do enjoy putting aside these 40 days and completely present them to God. So far, the task has been difficult, as it should be, but I'm still going strong!
35 days until Easter!

Waiting

This week has felt never ending. The only thing I can think about is my application. I still haven't heard from admissions about an interview and it's really making me nervous. They said interviews would be in mid march....and well, its mid march! I get asked constantly if I have heard anything about my aplication, which makes me even more nervous. The more and more people ask about it, the less and less I get excited about it because I'm afraid I'm going to have to relay bad news. I will be very disappointing if this doesn't work out, but I won't give up.

In the meantime, finishing up my senior year will be enough of an accomplishment :)

Do Not Worry

Before this week, I was doing the one thing that I didn't want to do this year. I was wishing away the days and anticipating spring break. But I can say I was not anticipating a busted tire, a broken phone, and locking my keys in my car. I have never experienced such an emotionally draining day.

For spring break my plan was to drive home to Arizona to spend a few days with the fam. But I should have known that MY plans never work out. The morning of my drive home my 2 year old phone decided to die on me. I didn't want to drive home with no phone or communication, so I borrowed my roommates old phone. However, her phone was no better than mine. Texting seemed to be the only option since the ear piece had a mind of it's own. But I still decided to continue on my trip. I left Irinve in the afternoon and was south bound on the 5. By the time I got to San Diego my car started to act a little different and made me worry. While slowing down and moving to the far right lane, my tired completely blew out. I thought I would go into panic mode, but I remained calm and pulled to the side of the road. Still with a broken phone, I got ahold of my parents and they called for a tow. The tow truck came out 30 min. later and put the spare on my car, to only find that my spare was flat. So now I had to drive to the nearest gas station to fill the tire up with air. Since I have n clue how to fill my tires up with air, my dad was walking me through the whole process. It was easy enough and I learned something new for the future! Now my spare was filled with air and I was ready to get on my way (planning on stopping at an auto shop to buy a new tire.) I went to hop back in my car to find I had now locked my keys in my cars. At this point I broke down in tears. I was stuck at a random gas station in San Diego with a broken phone, broken car, and it's getting dark by this time. My dad heard me softly through the phone and just told me everything would be ok, and it was. My parents, again, called a locksmith to come out to the gas station to get my keys. I had to wait another 30 min. for them to get there and pay another $100 to get my dang keys out of my car. By this time it's 6:00 on a sunday and every auto shop is closed. I wasn't about to drive back to school on a spare and I wasn't going to drive to Arizona. My only option was the call the one person I know who lives in San Diego, Caitlin. Because I couldn't retrieve the contacts from my phone, I had my mom get ahold of her and tell her I was going to her house. Caitlin, of course, let me stay with her with open arms and thankfully she only lived 15 min. away. I finally got to Caitlin's and I was feeling so overwhelmed with everything that had happened to me. I could not believe the day that just happened. The next morning I got a new phone and a new tire, and I headed back to school. I was still a little too shook up to be making that 7 hour long drive home.

I am now back at school and have been thinking, "What was God trying to tell me?" With so many events happening in one day, it was some sort of wake up call. He wanted me to really take a good look at my life and cast all my worries on him. Awhile ago I made a post about this bible verse:


[Philippians 4:6-7] Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.


I love this verse so much, and I try my best to live by it because I am such a worry wart. But I have not been close to presenting all my requests to God. I worry about school, money, nursing school and friends, and God was telling me that I never need to worry when I have Him. Enjoy each day and don't take anything for granted. Through this experience I have learned that money is never a source of happiness and friends are put in your life for a reason. Giving all my requests to God seems like an easy thing to do, but it is going to be a constant struggle not to worry about life. God was trying to tell me, "Do not worry about anything; you can take on anything because I am with you."