GRADUATION!

Whew... I am now a college graduate with a degree in Biology! I thought this day would never come. The past weekend was so wonderful. I was surrounded by supportive family and friends, beautiful weather and plenty of activities. Graduation day went by exactly like I had hoped (besides the fact that I got sick and lost my voice.) The day before graduation I woke up with a sore throat, headache and congestion while my voice was fading fast. My energy level was so weak, but fortunately I got through the long day. Me and Jeff had the baccalaureate service, graduation then graduation party. It was a very long day, but so worth it.

It is already weird knowing I will not be back at Concordia in the fall, but I'm really excited for my next adventures (whatever they may be). Now I have to make myself hireable ;)

 

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Personality Type

I recently took a personality test for the career class I'm taking. Its main focus was to find what type of career would best fit my personality. According to Myers-Briggs personality test, I am ISTJ. In one word this personality is described as dependable.

• Slightly expressed introverted
• Distinctively expressed sensing personality
• Slightly expressed thinking personality
• Distinctively expressed judging personality

According to my results, I am the exact opposite of the ideal personality to be a nurse. ENFP is described in one word as exhilarating. I really could care less about what some test says I should be...I just thought it was interesting. Personally, I think being a dependable nurse is way more important then being an exhilarating one. But maybe thats were my slightly expressed thinking personality comes into play.

After letting my rejection sink in, my future has become more unknown and slightly scary. I have finally reached my last week of school with only two finals to go and one paper to turn it. Exciting right? Then why do I feel lost and confused. As much as I have bashed on Concordia from the countless times they have screwed me over, I am going to miss this place.  From all the moving and changes in the past, I have finally found my home.  I realized this a couple weeks ago when I took a little vacation for myself, but all I wanted to do was get back to school. Thats when I realized a true home is somewhere you want to go back to, even after taking short vacation. My home is my vacation and I love it. 

Breaking News

It's unfortunate I have to deliver bad news. I received a letter last week from Concordia stating my application has been denied. Yes, I am disappointed but I have so many supportive people in my life that have only been building me up. It's nice to hear that so many people were sure I was going to get it, but I also feel like I let them down. I have had to accept their decision, but most of all I have become angry over their decision.

The four main things Concordia said in their letter was...
1. Thank you for applying
2. Your application has been denied
3. The competition was extremely high
4. Please apply again when your degree is final

What? When my degree is final? When I read that I was confused and slightly heated. For the past four years Concordia has been telling me to apply to the nursing program with or without a degree. They were encouraging me to apply to the program with my advantage of applying early. This was so I could get ahead of the game by apply before my degree in complete. Now they're telling me it's a make it or break kind of deal? I feel lied and manipulated to. It's really hard for my to praise Concordia after all I've put in here with nothing in return. They didn't have the decency to tell me I was not invited for an interview and my application was no longer being revised. I am outraged, as well as everyone else who was sure I was going to get in

With that rant, my emotions have been all over the place. Right now I have just been looking forward to graduating and receiving my degree in 3 weeks!

Thank you to everyone for all of the love and support! I know God's plan is right on course!

Sunny day on sunday

It was such a beautiful day yesterday that I couldn't resist being outside. I have been cooped up in my dorm room, constantly working on homework. I definitely needed a break, so I spend some relaxing time taking some senior pictures! My friend Kerri did me a huge favor and took some pictures for my graduation announcement. At first, I wasn't going to do the whole picture taking or grad announcements, but as graduation gets closer and closer I just couldn't help myself. I am way to excited.

   

Plan B?

It's crunch time. The weeks are by passing by in the blink of an eye. Graduation is almost here and I still have yet to hear anything about my application. If I'm being completely honest, I've had to use every muscle in my body to stay cool, calm and collect. If there was good news headed my way...I would have heard by now (or at least thats what I have told myself in my head). But for definitely, final decisions will be made April 15th. So until that date, anything is possible.

As for a plan B, my mind has been so consumed with other things I haven't had a whole lot of time to think about it. I will continue my application process to other nursing schools in California and Arizona. When will I start those? I have no idea. I guess my next step is figuring out which schools I want to apply to. So many big decisions to make coming up, but right now I'm just trying to enjoy my last few weeks of college!

Lent

Last week the wind orchestra played for the Wednesday chapel service for Lent. I usually don't go to chapel because I overuse the excuse, "I never have time." But this time, I'm very glad I was there. Every year for Lent, I eliminate something from my daily routine (usually a food item). Whether it be gum, chocolate, cookies or cheese (which was the hardest one to give up) I feel almost there is a respect factor to be shown. This year I have chosen to eliminate eating after 8 pm. In the past couple months, I have found myself to be an habitual midnight snacker, so it was a perfect thing to give up.
The sermon for the Lent chapel service really reminded me why take my time to give something up. Even though I struggle with not being able to snack after 8, it really does remind me of the great sacrifice of Jesus Christ. If I struggle with my task, I can only imagine what a painful process He went through. I know God doesn't ask or require us to "give up" anything, because His suffering and forgiveness is free that comes from unconditional love, but I really do enjoy putting aside these 40 days and completely present them to God. So far, the task has been difficult, as it should be, but I'm still going strong!
35 days until Easter!

Waiting

This week has felt never ending. The only thing I can think about is my application. I still haven't heard from admissions about an interview and it's really making me nervous. They said interviews would be in mid march....and well, its mid march! I get asked constantly if I have heard anything about my aplication, which makes me even more nervous. The more and more people ask about it, the less and less I get excited about it because I'm afraid I'm going to have to relay bad news. I will be very disappointing if this doesn't work out, but I won't give up.

In the meantime, finishing up my senior year will be enough of an accomplishment :)